Amanda (m00ng00dess) wrote,
Amanda
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It's just me isn't it?

Is it just me, or is Matt constantly over at Tommy's house, I can't take it any more, I NEVER get to talk to my boyfriend any more. What really sets me off is that I have talked to him about it, explained that I literally just drop my friends in the middle of something to see him, or talk to him whenever he calls, or whatever. I mean, I really can't stand it! It isn't right that when I want to see him or talk to him, I can't because Matt is there, but when he is bored, and Matt isn't there, and he wants to see me, I have to do it, or he will be mad at me! Is there an end to the madness????

On a more happy note, I didn't have school today, someone sent in bomb threats by e-mail to teachers saying that they were gonna "blow up the f*^%$#@ school and the kids in it too". Dr. Williams sent home letters saying what happened and telling everyone there would be normal school today. Mom however didn't want me to go, and no one else went either, at about six-thirty this morning they made the announcement on NBC that there would be no school today at GCHS or LOE, because it is so close to GCHS. Pretty fucked isn't it? Well, I guess, happy note, I didn't get any sleep, but, I do have a day to do nothing. I see my dad at the end of the day, and I am gonna go to Old Navy to get a bathing suit ( www.oldnavy.com ) and then Walmart to get tannning oil, my Aunt Sandy sent me a gift certificate to there because of my grades, and my enrollment in AP Stat and AP Bio, and because of my solo last month. *giggles* Well, I hope Tommy reads this because he won't listen to me when I talk to him online, and when I talk to him on the phone, he won't listen either....can i get it through to his smart brain, or am I too stupid?! Well...I guess that that is all I have to say, I'm gonna go...love everyone...kiana xoxo
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I know you won't believe me when I tell you that I do listen or that I can and will work on it. I'm not that bad of a boyfriend, or at least I don't think I am. I know I can be a jerk some times, but it can be kinda rough when you're trying to make two people happy at the same times. Sometimes you'll just end up with them BOTH of them not talking to you. For me, it's basically come down to: Who do I want to be mad at me today. It's tough. I'm sorry. Maybe I'll be able to handle it better soon. I sure hope so. I love you too damn much to hurt you any more. I can't live with myself when I make you mad. I hate myself for doing it. I love you. I love you so much. So much, in fact, that I'd be a little scared if I were you.
With love, your math nerd...Me!!